back to reality

hey ehsan? what is tht starter of msg i get from some girl mean?who is ehsan?hahahh wtv. is been so long i didt update my blog,coz of some reason.bz working while thingking what is life is all about?hahah it's funny how one minute,you can be so close to someone ,and the next minute you know them at all?weird is it.hahha naa! is not,ths what a rude people and a lie do.hahha nvm semua da berakhir sekian lame,we have our own life a dream to chase. even if we are a part will still from two difrent world,how hard to say that i dont love u,but at that moment u tell me that u want me to get along wth my life and slowly2 forget u,maybe that is the best part of us,while i m walking alone in the dark i wish that someone will lend me a light spot so that i wont get lost,and when i'm drungding in the blue ocean i hope that someone will jump and save me.but the truth is they are no one there and u are just a past time nightmare to me.u never even exist in my true world,i hate ur lies,i hate ur promises and i hat all about it,it never seem to be like use to be.i dont rili have an idea who the hell that i'm talking about,i'm talking about the person tht i dont rili know who is it?hehhehe.it suck while i'm still me.yhis is the real life.i dont evn know who are u?hahha tired of working,tired of scholl,its sucks how life crash in to me?hahha wtf just hapen,i wish that i never wakeup from my dream.everyday i wish that i never know u?n i wish that i never see u again? omg i listen to that bitch? pity me,been lie twice?everyday is a tired day coz i'm not some kinda rich boy that always waisting my papa mama money,i'm some poor boy that work for my own money lar.and hate whn u call me richboy fuckface this is me,i;m not rich like you,and i do what ever i want to do.and i think i dont rili need you to be strong,coz u are not some body anymore,fuckface. no more lies in my life no more pain in my eyes,and no more scrtch in my heart is enought the demage i gave to my self,stupit u muhd fitry b omar.get back to life and realiti it still half of a round world u see,u'll find a way and u 'll get use to it.never mind just be ur self.hahahah pity u always been hurt by serounding is suck is it,hahah ur time will come just be patient in life.come on this the time stnd up and be a man,forget the hurting past.just belive that u can do wht u want to do as long tht u are u and u have them.this is fasting month so much,much more patient pls. is just 11 days to go!!! can wait! this is me! gud bye and get the fuck out of my face!

welcome to my life :D

hey manje thx for everythng after all this time

my heart say:

Hush Hush Lyrics

Oooooh ooooh
I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointin' out my wrongs
i never needed pain,i never needed strain.
My love for you was strong enough you should've known.
I never needed you for judgement
I never needed you to question what i spent
I never asked for help, I take care of myself, I don't know why you think you got a hold on me.
And it's a little in the conversations
There isn't anything that you can say.
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so look at me and listen to me because,

I don't want to
Stay another minute
I don't want you
To say a single word
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
There is no other way 
I get the final say
Because
I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby Hush Hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how i act to what i say
i never needed words, i never needed hurt, i never needed you to be there everyday
I'm sorry for the way i let go
Of everything i wanted when you came along
But i am never beaten, broken, not defeated
I know next to you is not where i belong
And it's a little late for explanations
There isn't anything that you can do
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so you will listen when i say baby

I don't want to
Stay another minute
I don't want you
To say a single word
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
There is no other way 
I get the final say
Because
I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby Hush Hush

No more words
No more lies
No more crying ooh ooh
No more pain
No more hurt
No more tryin' Oh Oh Yeah
Because

I don't want to
Stay another minute
I don't want you
To say a single word
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
There is no other way 
I get the final say
Because
I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby Hush Hush

Yeah Oh
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby

mungkin kecik,

hemm.let me tell u a litle bit about me? u can hurt me easly,even whn u are dont know u are doing it. mungkin hnye sy ternampk sesuatu atau terbace sesuatu,itu pon boley wy sy sdey.cpt terasa dan kuat emo.itular sy dri dulu smpai skrg bnde itu xkn penah berubh?emm.myspace? top fren?wow! i know u for 4years lar, tp..dieorg lg layak ke?hahahh

enthlar,xtaw lar,who m'i now?n i xtaw spe yg i tngh ckp?i wnt to be with someone but enthlar,is hard to know it?da jauh da skrg?i'm not turning back,u yg bwt semua ni.so xkn i plak yg kne terhegeh2.hujan2,sian mama. da 4ari niaga dlm ujan. emm.i elegic to rain now,xtaw npe mcm smlm kne ujan je bdn naik lar bngkak2.hemm.da mcm kambing.

emm.penat terjage mlm tiap2 ari terpikir kan sesuatu dan memikirkn masih sme kah hari esok ku?enthlar,i'm totlly confused right now?forget it at all,beron da,xtawlar pe yg aku tulis?tp nk tulis blog pkirlain tulis lain?

i'm glade :D

selesai puasa ari ke-5 berpuasa.

i'm glade that i can help my mama berniaga kat bazar,baru aku merasa mcm mane peratnye org susah tolak roda tiga berniaga,hahahha mama kononlar gimek nk nampk cm old fashion tolak roda tiga,hahah uptular mamam,fitri tolong je. let me do all the heavy stuf u just sit down n relaks? mama tnye aik,dulu puasa2 pon kamu pg traning,np skrg mama da xnmpk kamu ptg2 ge training?emm.enthlar mcm mane nk jwb,stu kne gntong?pasal raja tu? scnd:xpyhlar train if fitri pg train spe nk tolng mama petng2 ni?lgpn i m quiting olahraga,spike oren tu da ade owg pon nk bli,is time to say gud bye to olahraga,this year i will ful time helping u at the kitchen,xpelar.kalau kite nk susah kite sush ank brnk sme2 oke?biarlar olahraga tu jd cume cita2 zman fitri budak2 dulu,lgpon lg bpe bulan je msti ade pecah record fitri da,heheh so lame2 org akn lupe muhd fitri b omar,

thx to u girl,finaly i phm,if kite cyg seseorg.kite xsemstinya bersama orgtu,emm.cptlar blik dri sungai petani tu,i kinda miss u,xtawlar pe perasaan ni.tp i btol2 wujud.xtipu.hemm.u make me understnd kite xboley selalu berlindung di bwh byg2 org lain.mungkin btol,kite xboley selalu membiarkn org mnyakiti kite.i'm glade i know u.thx f. . . ?

hemm.no more olahraga,sy nk berkerja bersunguh2 ramdahn ni,setakatni xdelar wonger2,xwujud kot taun ni,hehehehthx kwn2,thx alot for you suport! rajin2 dtglar lpk kt bazar ngn aku lg,mendap dowh! hahahaha selamt tingal olahraga,selling all my stuff, runing wears,spike,beg,tight mizuno kesyng aku,adisprint yg beli dri eyra,line7 lekat warne biru,adidas kesygn aku  tali warne ijau putih,hahahah ksot 3kali johan msspk record! n 200m final kebngsaan kt peneng! hhahhaha

thx for reding,mis u all friends!

bulan puasa :D

hemm.xsangke gak da tige ari aku berpuasa,rase cm cepat sngt mase berlalu.taun ni berpuasa sorng2 xde da nk buke puasa kt mcd.heheheh kngn yg lampau,pnt sngt 3ari ni yelar pkol4 da nk bkak bzar 3ari berturut ujan ngn lebat,mungkin tuhan nk menguji kiteowg.mama ckp tu hujan rahmat,best sngt bile ade jiran2 berniaga,bile nk tutup je bertukar2 brg mkn.hahah wah sedap sngt2,penat sngt2.adui xtawlar nk wtpe lg dlm bulan puasa ni.busan sngt2. kdng2 sush sngt bile da sorg2 sngt ni,teringat dulu2.hey if u xcyg i n xboley terime i xpyh lie to me tht u miss n love me?xde ponit pon kan u wt cmtu,u lg hapylar skrg?xperlukn i pon. wah.penatnye berfikir kdng2 heheheh.da buntu xtaw nk wtpe n nk ckp pe da?biarjelar.up2u is ur life not mine. pnt da nk terhegeh2 nie cm berok je,cm bgos sngt? hahahah cam i ni xdeperasaan plak,adui busan dengn perangai awk,ikot ske awk lar,kalau sy boley je tlng awk n ingt kat awk npe awk xboly?sb awk ingt sy ni terhegeeh2 kat awk kn?adui dalar wak ikot ske awk lar,da pnt sy mencuba.btw selamat berpuasa n hope sihat sentiasa.nk demam mkn lar ubt oke!

smpai skrg sy xtaw ape yg sy nk sebernye dri idop sy?kdng2 idop ni rase cm sest sngt tnpe arah tuju?siapa sy?ape sy? hahah kdng2 rase cm enthlar mmg sy dilahirkn untuk disakiti oleh owg ke?knpe semua ni awk kne bg sy rase? pedih sngt smpai skrg?adui.. da xbest da puasa tahun ni,xtawlar nk pkir pe da.lntk lar.papeje.slmt berbahgia. selamt berpuasa :)

remaind me of someone

AKON-KEEP YOU MUCH LONGER

Wish I could keep you much longer

I know you gotta go cuz you got things to do

Wish I could keep you much longer
Now you to busy for me girl like I was to you

Wish I could stop by
And maybe say hi
Wish I could jus stop by
And lay by your side

The tables have turned
And I've finally learned
That this is makin up for every day I was gone
And that's why I'm concerned
But now it's confirmed
That you spread your wings and learned to fly all alone

Darkness in the night
I'll find that light for you
As long as I got eyes
I'll have a sight for you
Long as I am alive baby I'd die for you
I wanna be with you

Wish I could keep you much longer
I know you gotta go cuz you got things to do
Wish I could keep you much longer
Now you to busy for me girl like I was to you

Wish I could stop by
And maybe say hi
Wish I could jus stop by
And lay by your side

You're always on my mind
While I'm racin
While I'm paper chasin
You were there when I said one day I'd get up out that basement
Playin as my agent
For you, there's no replacement
You will always be my girl
And you can hold me on that statement

Darkness in the night
I'll find that light for you
As long as I got eyes
I'll have a sight for you
Long as I am alive baby I'd die for you
Wanna be with you

Wish I could keep you much longer
I know you gotta go cuz you got things to do
Wish I could keep you much longer
Now you to busy for me girl like I was to you

Wish I could stop by
And maybe say hi
Wish I could jus stop by
And lay by your side

Baby I know you
And how we do
Doin exactly what I taught you
Gotta get that money first
Before you come spend that precious time with your boo
And I know I gotta just take it
Even though it's drivin me crazy
Always wanted to see my girl make it

Wish I could keep you much longer
I know you gotta go cuz you got things to do
Wish I could keep you much longer
Now you to busy for me girl like I was to you

Wish I could keep you so much longer

Wish I could stop by
And maybe say "hi"
Wish I could jus stop by
And lay by your side

Wish I could keep you much longer
I know you gotta go cuz you got things to do
Wish I could keep you much longer
Now you to busy for me girl like I was to you

Wish I could keep you baby
I just wanna keep you longer