MENCARI TUJUAAN HIDUP KU SELEPASNI?

berakhirlar suda mssd KINTA UTARA sbgai seorng yg bermasalah pd tahun ni,aku da ckup gembira dngan pencapaian pasukan SEKOLAH MENENGAH GUNUNG RAPAT yg berjaya mendominasi TEMPAT KE-3 KEDUA2 KATEGORI LELAKI DAN PEREMPUAN MENENGAH dan turut mendominasikn olahragawan dan olahragawati kategori KELAS2.pasukan relayU18 aku turut menyumbang 1 pingat PERAK dari acara 4x400m pada hujung2 pertandingan setelah hampe dengan kehilangan pingat emas yg boleh kami pungut tp kecundang d final 4x100m kerana BATON terjatuh d pelari pertame dan kedua.tp kami masih gembira dengan larian 4x400m kite sepasukan semalam dan bg kami itulah kepuasan.aku gembira selepas habisje larian aku terbaring kesakitan di tepi padang ramai yg menyorak SMGR!! dan memangil2 nama ku,aku dapat rasekn yg seluruh stadium memangil dan bersorak untuk aku,bagi aku arini ialah hari yang paling bahagia dlm hidup ku dalam tahun2009 dan sepanjang aku mencebri olahraga ini kali pertama aku dihargai.habis jew penutop.[ hahaha ini part paling best]aku di kerumuni oleh ramai untuk tangkap gambar hahaha.mcm artis plak kn!! baru aku dapat rasekn kepuasan hidup yg sebenar.thx everybody,janganlar puji org cacatni lebih2.thx cikgu2 yg puji n banyak berikan kate semangat,n thx jugak kat kwn2 n cikgu yg telah banyak menghalang aku supaya jng menyertai kerana kaki aku belum semboh,tp nk nwt mcm mane inilar aku seseorang yg degil dan keras kepala,thx to my [geng disiplin] boy n ruben.walaupon ada ura2 yg mengatakan yg aku mungkin xterpilih untuk msspk taun ni.nk bwt mcm mane da nasib badan.penat masih terasa selepas 1200m yg aku da lari pg n petang smlm.dimulakan dngan 200m s/final pg dengan mencatat satu "false start".sejam lepas tu 4x400m s/final dan mencatat lagi stu "false start" fight kami itu da mcm fight untuk final,heheh babi siak SUNGAI PARI!! halang ruben kalah deep di semi/final dan rangking no.3 stkatni. pkol4 petang 200m final dan turut mencatat "false start" tp ini false start yg pling cantik untuk tahun ni,maaf kepada sape2 yg d saiko hahahah!! dan pd pkol 4:40petang 4x400m final hahaha kami berjaya mendapat tempat kedua mengalahkn SUNGAI PARI heheh dengan sedikat perubahan strategi last minit alhamdulullah berjaya,thx to everybody yang selalu menyokong aku n SMGR thx pto kwn2 aku yg penjag padand pd ari 2.amad,shark,kasim n jambu tanpe korg mungkin aku x dpt sokongan yg mengcukupi.thx guys. smoga berjaya adik2 to MSSPK aku secara rasminye BERSARA dari OLAHRAGA..gud bye ADISPRINT..

IS IT YOU?

love?is't real?is't real love is for me?is't real that she already forget me?in the past few days i never hear anything from her or her msg,is't she forget me that fast?or is't she had someone else?maybe there are right u canot hold love to tight or u might lose it simply like a balloon once u let it go u maybe not got't back,i believe that she already forget me,i m not her BFF anymore n i m not one of them,nothing to tell i saw her today n i fell hapyy she already comeback in safe,wish me luck tomorow my 100m final! good night.

CINTA MONYETKU(2005)

PG2 LG AKU DA PG STADIUM NK TRAIN TP SAMPAI2 ADUI!LUPE PLAK ARINIE ARI SUKAN AVE MARIA CONVENT!HEHEH XPELAR LPAK TNGOK JAPLAR,XRUGI PAPEPN.ADUI LAMENYE NK START!DA START! WAH SEMPOI GAK MARCHINGBAND DIEORG.HAHAHA.GEMPAK2.AKU PN BERDIRILAR KAT SITU,ADE BNYK GILE KELASNYE,ADE ANTARA KELAS,ANTARA RUMAH SUKAN N INTER SCHOOL.HEHE ADIK2 AKU ADE LARI LAR,GOGOGO GUNUNG RAPAT ADUI DPT NO.2 JEW CDY AKU TRAIN KORG.HEHEH XPE2 CUBE LG K.DA LAME2 AKU DUK TBE2 ADE SEKUMPULAN MANUSIA JERIT NAME AKU.FITRI!FITRI!FITRI! HEHEH EKEHHHH!!KWN2 AKU ZAMAN JAHELIAH DULU!!HEHEH EH APE PELOK2 NIE!!HEHEH BESTNYE JUMPE KWN2 LAME AMBK BRT JUGAK EH KORNG KAT AKU,SEMUA ORG AMBK TAW PASAL KAKI AKU,HEEH THX GUYS N GURL,XLAME LPAS 2 TIBE2 AKU TERNAMPAK SORG GURL NIE,DIE DRI TD ASYIK USHA AKU JEW,AKU PNDNG BLIK. DIE SNYUM THN DIE DTG KAT AKU DIE TNYE:DO U STILL REMEMBER ME?aku jerit:CINDY!! RUPE2NYE DIE IALAH CINDY CHENG LAI SIN HEHEH.DIE LAR CINTE MONYET AKU ZAMAN AKU SKOLAH RENDAH DULU,HEHHE.LAME GLE XJUMPE DIE. KISAHNYE BERMULA MASE MSSD KU YG PERTAMA MEWAKILI SAM TET BG KEJOHANAN OLAHRAGA DKT PERAK,IA BERMULA DI SEBUAH LATIHAN PUSAT KT STADIUM HEHHE AKU TERPIKAT NGN SEORNG BDAK HURDLE NIE,DIELAR ORG TU .HAHAMASE DULU KITORG RAPAT SNGT TRAIN SAME2,MKN SAME2,KUAR SAME2,HEHEH MASE 2 AKU SUKE SNGT DIE MAKLUMLAR BDAK NERD LG,HEHHE.SELEPAS JE MSSM KITE OWG DA JRG JUMPE SB UPSR THN LPAS TU AKU PINDAH BUKIT JALIL BLIK JE DRI BJ AKU TUKAR KE SMGR MASE TU ADELG CONTACT2,TP MASE TU DIE DA ADE BF SO AKU XNK LAR GANGU DIE DA,HEHEH SEHINGALAR CAMP MASE 2007 KAT PAHANG KITE OWG JUMPE BLK MASE TU KITE OWG RAPAT BLIK ,JUNGLE TRACKING,HILL RUN,TRAINING,N MCM2 LG LAR.TP PERTEMUAN ITU XKEKAL GAK KEM PN TAMAT LPAS 9ARI KAT SANA.AKU SEMPAT CKP SLMT TINGGAL KT DIE MASE TU,HEHEH KITE OWG XBERHUBUNG HINGALAR JUMPE BLIK ARINIE,HEHEH DIE DA TINGGI lar,EH SALAH AKU YG XTINGGI2 LG.HAHHA BG AKU ARINI AKU GEMBIRA SIKIT SB DPT JUMPA KWN2 LAME AKU.HEHHE TP HARI2 TETAP SAME SB "DIE "DA XDE.MSGPN XREPLY,PELAR DIE NGAH BWT SKRG RINDU PLAK,RINDU SUARA DIE,DA 5 ARI AKU MIMPI PASAL DIE.TAPI APELAR DAYA"KAU ADA DIE".GUD LUCK KAT SANE,HOPE U X.....XDPAPELAR.. I WILL NEVER FORGET TODAY.WISH ME LUCK FOR MY 100M FINAL ON MONDAY!! HOPE U AKAN WISH KAT I.THATS WILL ME MORE HAPPIER.

I GOT TO GO MY OWN WAY.GOODBYE GIRL.

today same like everyday but this time it's REAL n it's totally hurting me the most.i have try,but now i don't want to try anything more.i m geting fadup with life n her atitute. she is makeing me sick with her. n she totally makeing me HATEING her MORE N MORE EVERY SECOND.i m tired of thinking of her thinking of her memory n her touch every second,i don't want to know anything about love anymore bcoz this felling is hurting my soul n my life very much since 44days ago i don't have a hapy life time bcoz of this broken heart,i din't sleep enought n get enought rest,hahaha i'm so stupit,yar i'm this is bcoz of my love on her,but now i realize she is just a PHOTO that i have lose now,i never find her again coz she said to me she don't wnt me back.haha that is the sadest thing a girl ever told me in my lifetime.thx hope u have a hapy after life with your love one,bcoz after this u are not seeing me anymore,bcoz i will be to far-far away to know n to hear your voice or looking at your face,it going to be "good bye bintang sooner" w'll never know each other anymore.thx to you i learn a new thing LOVE is just a word that can make you life coluorfull but it also can make ur life bleeding hardly untill u die.i see so many star n bright moon in this few day,n everytime i wakeup i thinking of her memory that he leave to me.i hope that someone come n help me erase it,i hope YOUR are the one that come to erase it for me,thx eyra u helping me alot since she gone,thx for the couradge that u give me,i hope that our friendship will last untill we die thx sister.for the girl that has hurting my felling so much thx k bcoz without u i don't know the real meaning of LOVE u have teach me alot.i love u photo edit,i hope that u will be hapy after this.from now one,u allready lose a friends that u know in 3yaers 2monts time,u lose a fans that allways suport you,n u lose a love that u kipt i strong all this long,i have gone now,i hope all the thing u tell me is real,thz coz being cruel to me n my fellings kipt FIFI save all the time k.hope that u say u don't need me is real coz u has gone so far with ur word.i just want to tell u that i never find some felling stronger than this.thx alot for makeing me week n makeing my cry bcoz of this DRAMA that u end it with a hurting memory,i hope that u will only lie to me.thz for your love n everythng that u have give me all this long,n i wnt to tell u that i wnt to see u today is bcoz i wnt to see n talk to u for the last time before VALENTINE i wnt ur love bck but i failed to get it bck bcoz u say u got someone else now,n i m glade u are very hapy now,i hope it will last for ever bcoz ur smile is everythng for me..i found my road now n i hope that god make it right this time for us.for the last time i love you dear.take care.good bye forever.

WHAT I WISH FOR valentine:

2MOREDAYS BEFORE valentine WHAT to do n what to wish for?only a HOPE that i carry n a DREAM that i hope that it will be come true sooner or later?so tired in everday waiting for someone that not even exist anymore.i try,i try n i try.so lame with everday that i must face true without u.i hate turning back actually,but my love on you is to strong to forget n to broke even that u doneso many thing that hurting my SOUL n my HEART but your ART always i kipt deep in side my mind memory so that i won't lose it if oneday a trgedy gone to grabe my life or change our future forever i know the memory still remaind in my mind even if i die today i m still me,n u will always be someone that i know n i love from yesterday,now n forever day or night,i wish that i have one more day to say n to hold what we build after all this long my heart n my soul always thinks about your love that u gave n what we have go trought everday together?this memory is to hard to forget even when i die i wish that the GOD still give me a chance to remember it untill the world separate to many part i wish that u will come bck n stick with me FOREVER.this what i wish for my valentine.i hope that i see u every morning n u will small n say "GOOD MORNING DEAR?DON'T U MIS ME"i need some love now.n i want it now.if i get it that is the best thing that hapen that i always remember in my lifetime.i love u.hapy valentine dear,hope that she will make u smile n hapy.i just can look,but i can't say anythng.sory for everythng.take care after this.i wrote this for you.BULAN.

06022009 BULAN

arinie xbrape hapy sb bsok time trial aku kene lalui untuk tntukan aku lyak or x wakil skolah untuk mssd.da bnyk sngt bende berlaku skrg dpt cikgu xngam ngan aku n senior skolah tu?taw2 die nk bubarkan squad msspk u18 gunung rapat.WHAT?ape maksod die aku die nk gantung aku dri team ape plak aku wt?gdo jap ngan die thn tbe2 die ckp "sye nk jatohkn awk"asal die bnci aku sngt?perlu ke wt smpai mcmni?kdng2 rase mcm nk pndah je dri skolah bodo nie?ade jugak skolah lain tawarkn untuk wakil tp entahlar aku bkn POWER pn dlm OLAHRAGE nie.aku kn xdisiplin?aku nk buktikn atlt inilar akn ulang ape yg aku bwt dkat MSSPK taun lpas walaupon cedera aku tetap nk sumbangkn EMAS untuk 4x100m kiteowg.aku,boy,ruben da target nk pecah kn record yg kite owg gagal pecah tahun lpas?arie nie kite owg kuar,aku,shasha n shera.mule2 busan je xdepape nk bwt nasib aku ngan shera ade plan.hehe kite owg test drive naek kate shasha?hahah da katam siot best gile rase bwk krte nie.hehe thx kwn2.walaupon td ujan lbt tp aku sronok.td pale pning sngt bnyk sngt pir.tmbh lagi rindu kt die.td die bg pendrv mule2 xprsn pn lgpn die bg cm2je xtgor pn.rase cm jauh sngt kiteowg walaupn stu kelas.kdng mase nk tido 2 tngok gak gmbr die tnye napelar kne BREAK2 nie sdih sngt2.xtaw skrg die ade ke owg lain?mse blik nampak die,cube nk tgor tp tkot enth2 x dilayan pon.sapelar aku skrg bg die.rndu die sngt2.bsok time trial ingt mlm nie blehlar ym ke msg ke tp die cm da xde ktsini jer.mane die eh.enthlar bilelar hbngn aku akn OK blik ngan die.bilelar kite owg nk glak2 n hapy cm dulu lg.da xrase mcm idup da!

THE LOVE THAT I HAD.

12november2008-is the last time we be together dear,thats the last anysry that we ever have.on that day u tell me that u are very hapy even we have a small fight.i know on that day we two are so in love with each other.but that hapiness not less till the end of our life.u leave me on 31dec2008.yar maybe btol xde cinta pertama yg kekal selama-lamanye.cinta pertama terlalu indah untuk dibawa mati.mungkin lpas ni aku dan die da xde harapan untuk bersama.lagipun aku suke tngok die skrg walaupon kadang2 jealous ngan gelagak die.laki mane yg xjealous walaupon EX die make a drama infront of her.tpi xpe itu ialah kebebasan die skrg.lgpun aku taw die x bebas n hapy mase bersame aku.aku taw aku bknlar yg pling sempurna untuk die.aku bknlar mahkluk tuhan yg paling die cyg n cinta sebagai mane yg diwarwarkan smase kiteowg besame dulu.da xde die make xdelar CINTA tok aku sb aku xcdng nk mulekn mane2 hubungan ngan mane2 pompuan lagi sb hati aku msih tersekat dengan die.ingatlg mase tu firstime ngok wayang mase tu bdak2 lg lawak kot tngok cite beawolf.that is our first date kot.mase tu aku form2 lg xtaw papepn.kite owg slalu habiskn mase same2 tiap2 arie msg pn 24jam 7hari seminggu.kite org bleh dikatekan tiap2 ari gado,gado,gado. tp mase tu xtaw lar mcm mane kite owg ley than xbreak2.aku penah ade cite2 ngan die if kiteowg da kawin kite owg nk honeymoon kt paris.hehe.kite owg teruja sngt mlm tu kite owg bkak SUPER SAVER sambil tngok cite'eiffel i fall in love' start dri tu lar mcm2 mimpi pasal nk ge paris kite owg cipta.aku rindu saat tu,rindu saat die ckp yg die cyg n rindu aku.tp skrg aku da sorg.kite owg xbertegor sape sejak break jika xpenting hubungan yg mesra slamenie tbe2 jd dingin seolah2 kiteowg xpenah kenal.kdng2 aku pkir wht are u thnking bulan??don;t u fill what i fill on you?do u forget the same LOVE that we had?i tell god that you are the best gurl for me n i never find another gurl,n i will love you till the last drip of my blood.tp skrg da bebeza kite owg da pn break mungkin ini yg terbaik untuk die tp bg aku ia xpnh jd yg terbaik pn sb aku mmg xnk kehilangan die.but now i face it die mmg xnk kat aku nk bwt mcm mane da owg xnk kt kite,sjak die pg smua da lain da xde owg msg,call pagi2 da xde owg kejot,i try to msg n call her but lupe sapelar aku xde respon lglar if die reply aku mmg nasib baik arie 2.idup da busan nasib lar ade katil n lagu penganti busan.cinte da ilang aku xhancurkan tp enthlar.apesalah aku,maybe aku yg jahat n xcukup baik tok die.i will only give up when she got other people n she say that she don't ever love me now.itu je satu2 je penhujung cinte aku kt die.bg aku bulan bintang xkn pernah pisah untill the world separate two n death take me with it only that time i will go n give up on bulan.for now do what ever u wnt to do n kipt hurting me.i m always here if u need HELP.tke care BULAN